The more I live the more I fall in love with the dogs. They are loyal and they are grateful, but what is the most important is that they never leave You alone. They never hurt You. This is why I feel higher need to take care of a dog rather than a human. And if I can... I would take all of them to my house and feed them, take them for a walk, wash them and play with them...

It is already the evening and I have this almost one-year-old beauty sleeping on her warm furry blanket, near the pillow with Christmas ornaments on the ground. I hear her breathing and understand when she is dreaming. Oh my... How much does she dreams! And then, after every kind of adventure that she was dreaming of, she just gives a deep sigh. It surely fascinates me. This treasure. This amazing, unique, spectacularly smart dog.

This girl! How she does that? How she lights up the room whenever she enters it? It seems that her life is worth-living! You know what? This girl is vulnerable. This girl cries. This girl begs for safety. This girl is the one You must take care of.

Hug her till she is no longer strong. Do it till she opens up her soul with all these wounds.

You have looked at me and asked if everything was fine. Of course I did say that yes, because this is what I was taught. Everything is fine. Everything is great. Yes, I am alright.

Why?

Because at the end of the day nobody really gives a damn about You. Nobody calls You just to make sure if You are healthy. They call if they need something from You: help, advice, response. They are selfish. And what about me? I pretend to be selfish. This is silly, but life, or better say, people have taught me this way. You have to be selfish. Though... Sometimes it is really hard. To pretend that You do not care how others are doing. To pretend that You do not care if they are healthy, happy, enjoying what they do. It is hard. To be this way. To be rude. Really hard.  But You just can not go there and start asking them every single they how do they feel even though You care...

Why?

Because they will start using You. They will not appreciate it. They will take You for granted...

I used to love fondly, deeply and without any borders. I used to believe and have faith in people. I used to trust. These are the main reasons why I am so broke right now. You want to know the truth? Do You? Just look me in the eyes. Look me in the eyes till I will not handle it anymore and turn my head to side. Just look me in the eyes and they will say everything. Your doubts. Your dreams. Your wishes. Your sorrows... They will answer to You. Just look me in the eyes.