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 Why should you, a kind little creature hurt others? Why should you pretend to be better than you are right now? Why should you hurt, lie, pretend? Please, at least, stay honest with yourself. I know who I am and I know who I do not want to be. I understand every action, I make. And I wish I could change. Only a little bit, to be more something better. I know I am not good enough. Not pretty enough, not happy enough, not mature enough, not elegant enough, not brave enough, not smart enough, not "anything" enough... I guess, I am not made to trust others and to trust myself. I can not relay on nobody. I can not let anyone in to my heart. Must lock everything. My minds are my own prison and nobody is able to save me...